Amor Fati will be a non-performance performance of my most recent musical release. A dual projection of photos and video as I hold space beneath the projections as an observer, sometimes engager. It’s a separation of performer from performance, and performer as active observer, at times totally still, other times dance like movements provide an atmosphere of call and response.
Description of the Album
Amor Fati is a Latin phrase that may be loosely translated as "love of fate" or "love of one's fate". It is used to describe an attitude in which one sees everything that happens in one's life, including suffering and loss, as good or, at the very least, necessary.
Early in my career, I saw my music as a mirror I held up to the world reflecting social issues. My recent work turns the mirror around, placing my impact into the context of the world exposing my complicity and mistakes.
Amor Fati, is a series of four e.p. albums that transform regrets, conflicts, and pain into haunting songs spiked with dissonant sorrow. The Amor Fati series is the musical act of making peace and transcending the shadow of past trauma towards acceptance in order to live a full and whole life.
On January 20th, 2016, the album was released during the Pittsburgh Cultural Trust’s Gallery Crawl in their black box theater. The duration of the video is around 22 minutes, with a musical interlude. I performed 7 rotations of this non- performance performance with my back to the audience, cloaked in hood that obscured my face. I couldn’t emotionally perform the songs, I couldn’t afford to pay the band and promote it, and after hundreds of performances I tired of the routine. So I chose to change the nature of the performance by sitting alone beneath the screen and engaging with the film.
Images by Renee Rosensteel and Maggie Negrete